you didn’t know

i was trying to heal for you 

and i didn’t know

i was wounding you 

you kept telling me

things i already knew

that wasn’t why i left

i just couldn’t hurt you

you were the last one untouched

the last unconverted believer 

i turned around from cynic’s end

when i saw you in my rearview mirror

so please don’t hate me

i just couldn’t bear to see you fall

you’re the reason i’m still trying

so i can’t be the reason you give up on it all

baby, i wish you could understand

i left so you could be with her

that her, right now, it isn’t me

maybe not this lifetime, not this year at least.